Hi guys! I wanted to say with deep gratitude that I have NOT broken my "car streak!"🤯 Today was Day 64 of the car streak! I've also broken through my Journaling phobia! Today is day 10 of the Journaling! I am dealing with intense and deep grief, shock, health issues, potential brain damage.. But I'm sharing this because I haven't given up.. And I don't want you to, either. Love you guys! Keep going 🥰

But it helped me tremendously this morning when it came to me, and I feel called to share in case it could help someone else. I've decided to slightly tweak the wording I'm telling myself from "I'm healing" (which I need to and I AM...) to "I'm upgrading my programming" I feel like the latter has so much more hope to it, without denying the pain that was caused in the first place. It validates our pain without making us stay there forever. And it validates why it takes me a LOT of effort to feel certain things others might get to take for granted. Such as safety. But again, it isn't saying that "because I received this programming, I am doomed to live in it forever." It ALSO isn't saying "this life is my fault". Because if you genuinely KNOW you are doing the absolute best you can, then it isnt your fault! But the exciting thing is there are things we can do to upgrade that programming, so that we CAN change our experience of living! I hope this gives even a glimmer of hope to someone that there IS hope! I love you!!

Why I feeling drain and so down all day. It like i just feel like i am not good enough. I feel like crying all day but didn't. I want for a small walk that help a little but the feeling is still there stuck. I just want to have a good day. I know soon I will go to bed. I will do some of my diamond art maybe put music on that is calming. I am on my grounding mat.

https://youtu.be/aR94g2UW_G0?si=y9KpvGDMj0cZhUgd I'm on day 2 of it.. it is ALREADY helping me soo much not only in the moment but to know I have a record!! If you struggle to journal, try this!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!!

I am SO excited about this because I've been wanting and NEEDING to journal for so long but had so many resistances.. This is not only adhd "friendly" but I would say SUPPORTIVE and PRODUCTIVE!! Words that mean everything to my soul 😅🤣 So basically you put the date on the top right corner. Then the rest of the page, you "check in" with yourself. You put the current time and then write a line. The reason this is supportive particularly of adhd is we can EASILY forget within seconds.. Especially if we are by ourselves. So anyway, I've done the process today and I've not only gotten a lot done in the house (even though it doesn't FEEL like that), with LESS resistance!! Also, if I decide to more "formally" journal, I now don't have to try to remember the day... I can actually read through what happened! ALSO, you can use it to help your brain "ramp up" to tasks or appointments you have. Also, I've started using my sandtimer. Not even for specific things (I'm supposed to be "resting" 😅) but truly to help me see passage of time better. Now I do know that part of why I got so much "done" today is a lot of external circumstances. Kind of like if you work out and the sun is shining etc.. However, I see how this system will help me even on "cloudy" days (using the metaphor). This is DATA for me to see my EFFORTS. And with rsd etc, I need a lot of data. Anyway, give it a try! Love you guys!