Day 12- Stop Half-Claiming it I really appreciated today's work. Since our naming ceremony on Day 7, I have been reflecting on how acknowledging my gift and honoring it with a name feels within me. Mostly, I am proud and practically giddy with the threads that are tying together and making sense to me. However there is still resistance that I must continue to face where I feel that I haven't earned my right to be proud of myself, or that I am arrogant in thinking that my gift of Connection is special. I know this resistance is old wounds and outside voices, because I feel very deeply that Connection is an integral part of the human experience and we will need to be more aware and protective of our Connections if we are to progress as a society. I really liked the last journal prompt of What would change if you believed your gift was true. It's a great perspective prompt to have in mind, because so much of The Work really is embodying what you're learning and what you know. It was hard to come up with an answer, and I felt that it was partially a good thing because I HAVE been moving like I believe in myself, it's just difficult managing my energy levels. Recently I posted my first post on a couple writing platforms and am drafting essays and reading books on my wishlist for some projects I have in my pockets. But I imagined a bit beyond that, and assumed that I had the energy and the health- what would change? I'd be out in the world talking to people and making those gifted connections. My dream would be to apprentice for the herbalist in my town and as I learn from her, and continue with my research and essays, I would come into contact with folks who would benefit from my gift of connections, either with friendship or resources or support. I'd also be advocating the importance of Connection and creating content that helped folks build foundational skills to help themselves be able to be apart of a community. Connection to the earth, connection to the magical in the mundane, connection to their heritage, connection to themselves, with life and even a connection with death- with anxiety and insecurity of all kinds riddling our culture, there's a lot of work to be done!

Day 13- Stop Preparing. Start I appreciate the challenge integrating actual steps forward. For the last six weeks or so I have been actively practicing with a couple of willing friends, trying to understand how I can help folks remotely. It's been fun playing around with energy work, I tend to treat each session like I used to conduct a massage appointment with a client. However the challenge is pushing me to keep up these practice sessions, and I like that a lot because I feel so much doubt and fear that I can feel myself shrinking and have a hard time with my confidence in the Doing of things. I will be asking a different friend if I can practice energetic presence with them, this week- literally tuning in and connecting with them. I think if I practice that presence it'll help me with my confidence. I have a tendency to get stuck in research loops, so I'm proud of myself for getting ahead and setting up some practice sessions but I still have a long ways to go as far as feeling confident and knowing what the heck I'm doing. But that's part of the journey and I'm trying to treat it like play! It's been challenging for my perfectionism wound which is great, but I'm tired of it lol I have been honoring my commitment to myself and my gift. I have been listening to power is containment audio and also doing meditations every night with 478 breathing and grounding. I also do the containment breathing every morning before checking my phone! Im doin it!!!! Scared and showing up!!! 🐸💖🌳

How fun, Anthony!!! It's been very fun reading your posts going on the journey along with us 💖 I also love that you basically HAVE to go hang out by the pool to get good wifi 😂 enjoy!

Whew! Glad you're okay, Anthony! I hoped it was just your travels and not something bad. Thank you!

It's beautifully laid out!! Very accessible and well organized thank you so much 💖💖

You're great Anthony, I'm really excited for this opportunity!!! I can feel the rainbow shaman love!! 😭😭💖💖